Better In Time

Was driving home from work yesterday. As usual, I couldn't stick to a single radio channel. Then suddenly, the tuner stopped at Fly FM.... and the familiar beginning of a song intro filled up the car. A song that I heard once before .... but caught my attention because of the meaningful lyrics, that reflects how I feel about him. Every line of the song was relating to my lost, my will to survive and be happy without him, my fear that the hurts will still be there even after the wound healed....

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going
Coming
Thought I heard a knock(Whose there? No one?)
Thinking that (I deserve it)
Now I have realised
That I really didn't knooOooOw

If you didn't notice
You mean everything (quickly I'm learning)
To love again (all I know is)
I'm be oooOook

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too
Oh yeaah (It'll All get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve tooOooh (It'll all get better in time

I could of turned on the TV
Without something that would remind me
Was it all that easy?
To just put us out your feeling

If i'm dreaminDon't want to let it (hurt my feelings)
But that's the past (i believe it)
And I know that, time will heal it

If you didn't notice
Well you mean everything (quickly i'm learning)
Oooh turn up again (All I know is)
I will be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals tooOooh yeah(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve too oooooh(It'll all get better in time)

Since there's no more you and me (No more you and me)
This time I let you go so I can be free
And Live my life how it should be(No No No No No No)
No matter how hard it is
I will be fine without you
Yes I Will

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals tooOooh(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile cos I deserve too yes I do(It'll all get better in time)

Favourite TV adverts....

I have been gaining weight because I have skipped going to the gym.... Don't feel motivated, lazy, tired, depressed..... and more. So what do I do instead of exercising? I watched a lot of TV... and adverts. Here are my list of favourites (Hmmm.. this is an indication how bored I am with my lifeand I should get a new one!!!!!)

1. Sony Face Detection Handycam - a group of toddlers doing that antics of vandalism. Never knew that vandalism could be shocking and funny and amusing at the same time.
2. Bridgestones Tire - a couple of butterlies, perching on trees, flowers, leaves but could never kiss because of unsteady surfaces.... finally get to kiss on a moving car with Bridgestone tires. The puckering extended lips of the butterflies were so cute... great special effects
3. Digi Postpaid (Big brother bully) - Flashback of 2 siblings where the older brother bullied the younger one, then back to the present, they are talking on the phone. This just remind me of my childhood with my siblings. Thought I never bully my siblings much.... we had our fights. Now we are the best of friends, they are my rock.
4. Ogawa Mother's Day advert- that Chinese boy with the chores vouchers just tugged my heart maximum.... tears wells up in my eyes everytime I see it.

I am bored... and boredom is going to kill me. Have too much time on my hand. Going back to the gym tomorrow!!!!!!

This is Maira's blog... I used to have loads of her pic on my PC. Unfortunately it was stolen from me. So most of Maira's first 3 years of life have no photos as her mom/my sis thought she could get the photos from me later. Well little did we know that the pic would be lost with the pc..... Anyway.... Aida, I am making sure the pics are here forever....

I have a few more which can't be loaded here....

Foreign relations

A few weeks ago my work place was visited by a group of US/UK based non-profitable organization, aiming at forging a working relationship in terms of training, exchanging expertise and improving our working techniques. I, unofficially and accidentally got roped in as part of the organizing committee.
I laboured in preparing the proper cases for us to present to them....and I quietly grumbled at these extra duties that has been given to me.As if I don't have enough work to do.Not only I have to search for these cases, I have to make repeated phone calls to people that still live in the stone ages where they don't believe in telephones, thus making my work ten-fold harder. Then I have to prepare the work sheets so that they can be presented properly, I have to make sure they are call in at the right time, prepare a place for them in the ward... and above all make sure they are all prep for our foreign friends. But little did I realised at this point of time that all these effort could be so worth while, rewarding, life changing experienced.
These foreigners, each an expert in their own fields, not only shared their technical skills and modern method for peanuts, they also reminded me of lessons which I could not learned from the text books. The finer arts of medicine....committment to the job, empathy to the patience and family, honesty in doing your best. Characters that should have been compulsory when venturing into this field. I had these when I first started out. Didn't loose all of it along the way but I know the passion to healed do waned and withered.... but once in a while, a wake up call is needed to put me back in my spot. It took these people from outside... foreigners.... to show me that I should be kinder to my fellow Malaysians in their time of need and grief.
I should grumbled less, work honestly, empathized more with my patience.... try to make their time in the hospital more bearable. Being sick is already an unimaginable tortureand ordeal... I am there to help, not blamed.